When I wrote

I sat down last night to begin writing a paper that has been running around in my head for some time now. It's a wonderful experience, to find oneself in the presence of that simulated alterity which springs out with the pen. There's a struggle, because our ability to delude our minds is much greater than our ability to trick a simple piece of paper (or in this case, a computer screen) into believing that our ideas are well-formed. And there is a bit of terror involved because the concept, once it leaves the comfortable womb, is no longer quite yours. It grows on it's own, rambling across the pages, taking sometimes unexpected turns which might better be attributed to muscle spasms than pure intent. The concept may remain friendly, but it often becomes a burdensome companion, which must be walked patiently to its end. Its incompetence is frustrating: it was so crystalline before it emerged!

Or maybe it's a phoenix, and as it burns itself out, it beckons other concepts to existence. Their incubation may be swift - they jump out a few days later and die on a post-it - or it may be long, paced, perhaps the work of decades. The latter bide their time (watching the seasons change) and they feed on the many deaths played out before them. It is never quite clear, with them, that they will care to emerge at all.